Just no

So your evening went a bit south. And here you are, trying to make the best of it. And there they are, a person of thoroughly questionable character, sending good vibes your way. Do you shut them out, like a sane person would? No. You squint enough not to see the fine print and take the momentary gratification at face value. Because if you keep to the very middle of this road, you won't see the potholes. Or that it leads to into a cesspool. And you don't need to. It's just tonight.

People are so pathetic. And by people I half-heartedly mean someone less generic than that.

State of the Turnip

So, eight months have passed.

I went to Croatia. I settled into the new flat and did what I could to make sure that I get some peace and quiet.

Dated someone for about 2 months. Obviously it wasn't a complete success, since I'm writing this in the past tense, but it was a nice experience overall, and trauma-free.

Family's good.

Issues... still present, but shifted. A big one seems to be gone. Not sure how, but it really does feel like you're cured when you can't even be bothered to tart yourself up for a meeting with your kryptonite.

Right now I'm in a weird little situation. I'm not 100% sure what it is, which gets confusing and occasionally upsetting  Usually I play my cards close to my chest for maximum deniability, but here I went back and forth on it so much that I don't know what to think anymore, Even worse, I lost track of what I've been putting out there, signal- and message-wise. Maybe there's something to be said for flying blind. I don't know.

Going to see Simon Amstell live this spring. Birthday gift from friends. Something to look forward to.

...and sleep is here. Finally.